One of the many things I loved doing was run to her every time something went wrong. And every single time, she would tell me “It’s ok, Apo. We’ll fix it”. True enough, she would always find a way to mend things.
When I was five years old, I bit her dress in a childish attempt for stop her from leaving the kubo and I ended up with a loose tooth. At nine in the evening and out in the middle of nowhere, hope for my tooth was almost lost. But with the magic of a single thread, my grandmother was able to solve the problem.
But there would also be times that things would get wrecked beyond repair. Similar to how I tore half my Sunday dress by playing near the fence or how my goldfish got swallowed by the neighbor’s cat. “Let it go, Apo. Your Mama will get you a new one”, she would say.
Looking back, it made me realize that every problem has a solution as long as we put our hearts into it. But sometimes the solution is to simply give up and let things be. “H’wag mo nang pilitin, Apo. Lalo lang yan masisira” my grandmother used to tell me. And she was right.
Once, I tried to mend a broken necklace, I ended up breaking it even more; I tried to glue a broken glass together, I ended up with a thumb-full of bandaids; I attempted to fix a ruined relationship, I ended up breaking myself even more.
Maybe that necklace could have been used in a more efficient way if I gave up repairing it and simply turn it into a bracelet. Maybe I wouldn't have cut and hurt myself if I just got a new glass. Maybe I would have healed faster if I never attempted to fix a relationship that’s been long broken.
Accept. Let go. Move on. (SRN_UP Peer Facilitator’s Training, 2006)
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