I am a careless man's careless daughter

It has been almost a year since I last saw you. Now, all I'm hoping for is for my feelings to turn out to be self-implicated; my efforts futile; and us being together, imaginary.

I continue to walk down my path, hoping that our paths would cross some distance ahead. Do I wait for you, and miss out all the other opportunities? Or do I grab my opportunities and miss out my chance to be with you?

In the battle with myself, I end up winning. But I also end up losing.

Which do I choose? And why? Why is that even when I was sure that you will never be mine, I still look on and watch myself fall carelessly deeper into the imaginary world where you and I are together? 

Questions I'd rather ask on a date

Being on a date with a potential romantic partner is one of the most crucial stages in dating. As this is basically the stage that you open yourself to the possibility of a new relationship, you become observant of your date's mannerisms, table etiquette, and smart-ass retorts in convo exchange. It is important to be very observant at this point because it basically determines what kind of person your date is.

And imagine it turns out well, you got to know what he's like at home and you finally decide to tie up loose ends, and finally got together. Happily ever after, you realize that he might've exaggerated a bit with his stories, and fabricated some to his arguments (memorized some lines that goes well with another).

A dozen relationships and a couple liters of liquor after, I began to wonder what if we start asking some in-depth questions just about anything. I wondered where your "relationship" would end if you start asking questions about politics, philosophy, economics and other relevant issues that the world is facing today.

Questions like, "What's your stand on the issue of the Reproductive Health Bill?", "Do you think Merciditas Guiterrez will be impeached after the Senate hearing? How do you think that will after the politics of our country?". Or you can also ask his stand on pre-marital sex and abortion and the democracy of the Philippines. Ask away without commenting on the subject. Why? Do you know the Draatism theory by Kenneth Burke? Well, if you don't, he basically stated that in our everyday lives we act out parts of ourselves in settings, plots and use tools to act out our general purpose. If your date's purpose is to woe you, then there is a great possibility that you only see the act onstage, while the backstage is well hidden. By commenting on the subject, you give your date a hint of your stance and opinion. Based on this, your date would want to appeal to your side.

Wala lang. Naisip ko lang naman. In the end, it might either be that your date becomes so bewildered by the depth of your questions and leaves you, or your date gets so impressed (and you do too) and you end up with someone worth suffering for. Not to mention worth having good conversations with. :)

-kaLai